I have never had a burning desire to have children. I always thought I’d just have pets 🙂
Orange maxi dress, ASOS £35
Chelsea boots, ASOS £25
Beaded bag, Miss Selfridge £25
It’s mainly because, I’ve lived in other countries, I love travelling, going to the pub, meeting friends whenever I like….basically living a selfish life, cos why not? I think it’s also why I prefer being a self employed vet so I can travel at the drop of a hat 🙂
The other big reason is that I’m petrified of giving birth, and hospitals, and medical procedures….. I could go on 😂
So, when the little test line appeared and I was confirmed as preggers, my first feelings were panic. Omg I have to give birth!
We were about to leave for the Maldives which has had zika in the past, should we still go? My cousins wedding is next year in Greece, we’re supposed to go! Have I got enough money? How will I go back to work (I need to because I’m self employed)? What childcare will suit us? We have no family down in London, how will I cope? I am getting older …. stressssssssssss
But slowly, we started working out little plans (and still are!). Most of that anxiety has now dissipated. I am deteremined to take the little one on holidays as much as we can before school starts. The amount of people who have replied with ” no more tropical holidays for you two then” because they know thats what we love, has only made me more determined to travel with a baby.
The only other hurdle for me, was my fear of giving birth. I think it’s because, being a veterinary surgeon, I do that kind of stuff in work, C-sections etc. and I know animals cope better than us humans so it scares me to death. I feel like it’s a different world of secrets nobody tells as they don’t want to put people off having kids cos “it’s the best thing ever” (I’ve heard that line soooo many times)….. nobody ever goes in to any detail. Needless to say, we start hypnobirthing classes next week 🙂
If you follow my blog for vet stuff and fashion, don’t worry that will still be the mainstream event but I just wanted to throw my feelings about pregnancy out there incase somebody else is feeling like me 🙂
“What ever will be will be”
The Vogue Vet